The Almighty Human Heart

Human heart is the almighty of the all might. It could beat for no reason or even all the wrong reasons. It could also beat for one particular person or maybe more than it could handle.

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But human heart, it never weakens, it gets stronger. Even if you let someone took a half of it from you and never came back, it will grow to love again. 

Maybe not for others, but more to yourself.

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Sebuah Surat Terbuka untuk Perempuan Lain.

Apa yang kamu pikir kamu tahu tentang dia?

Sepersekian hidupnya yang dia bagi denganmu? 

Sepersekian cara pandangnya yang kamu pikir segalanya?

Sepersekian ambisi dan cita-citanya yang terdengar memukau di telingamu?

Sepersekian masalahnya, yang kamu pikir bisa selesaikan, semudah berkirim salam dengannya?
Sepersekian cerita-ceritanya yang membuat sepenggal sore di parkiran motor, jadi terasa seperti selamanya untukmu?

Sepersekian waktu sarapan, makan siang dan makan malam, yang kamu pikir bisa jadi keseluruhan waktunya?

Sepersekian kebersamaan yang ingin kamu perlihatkan pada dunia namun tak dia ijinkan?

Sepersekian kisah kami yang kamu tolak untuk pahami?

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Apa yang kamu pikir kamu tahu tentang dia, hanya sepersekian hal-hal yang tanpa sadar dia bagikan, karena kamu memaksa ada. Tapi aku dan dia––kami––kami berbagi sebuah hal yang lebih besar; cerita tentang masa depan. Yang secara sadar dibangun bersama sejak lama. Yang dengan atau tanpa kamu, nyatanya masih ada.

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Dan kamu, pulang lah. Di sini tidak pernah dan tak akan pernah ada tempat untuk kerumitan, apalagi untuk yang lain.

"Laras hati

Alirkan diri kembali

Membujur tubuhku

Sejuk pangkuan dirimu

Tak ingin terbungkus

Terbungkus penyesalan

Puing-puing janjiku

Kupugar kembali untukmu

Segala denyut nadi memanggil

Kamulah satu-satunya

Kamulah…"

––Kamulah Satu-Satunya, Dewa 19

[Second] Chances.

About second chance and many other chances in the world. Only a thin line separates them, second chance is earned not given.

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In life we live on chances.

The ones the universe made falling onto our laps. The ones we take responsibly, because we know they have to be worked on. The ones with consequences on their own, even if it’s still mysterious to be known.

In life, sometimes we also live on second chances.

The ones we take from those who still have the courage to believe in us. The ones we take with a humility and care, knowing they have to be earned. The ones with consequences on their own, clearly just because we know we blew up those firsts and we can’t afford to blow it up again.

Chances and second chances. The same, yet completely different. There are kindness in both of them. Only, in second chances, there are forgiveness that make them harder to be carried around.

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I kept thinking about how many second chances people deserve to take. How many a person deserve to give. What if second chance is never meant to be pleural?

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"Tried to rewrite things and go back

to the part where things were alright

Wish you tell me don't wanna love me from the start

Now why don't you just turn back if you can't love me when we're down
Back to you
Will never feel the same, i think it's time
To let go
Every broken things that we are..."

––Don't (Love Me) - Coldiac