random.

They were waiting for a taxi on the side of the road. It was 3 in the morning, and they were still wearing the same outfit from work the day before. She didn’t really know what to say or even what to do. He seemed distant. But it was good she thought. If he touched her, anywhere, even if he did it unintentionally, she would never be able to hold it. She would just ask him to stay. Fucked her to the sun goes up. And she knew, he would say yes.

“Where’s the fucking taxi? It’s not good for a decent girl like me to be seen with a guy like you. Haha,” She said to him, awkwardly. He giggles.

“No decent girl wants to be choked during sex, Darling.”

“Well, decent girl wants to get wild too sometimes, Mister. Still, it’s not good if people see us like this. I mean imagine, my friends or yours, or even worse, our friend, passing by and like… ‘What the fuck are guys doing together?’”

“Yeah. If that’s what happening, let them be. It’s not the shit they should fuzz about. People fuck each other, that’s it.”

“Still! It’s pretty random.”

“Hahaha random. Yeah, random.  Even for me.”

“Sorry?”

“In terms of girls I’m quite random, I should say. But tonight was way more than that.”

The glimmering eyes she was showing, they suddenly disappeared. Followed by blazing strikes from the taxi’s fog lamps. She got in there in a rush. Insisting him to let her go home all by herself. He kissed her goodbye. She kissed him back, more of an obligatory one, like the thing you think right to do if someone put his hand up for a high-five with you.

Deep inside her, it was kinda hurt. Not to be melodramatic, but she actually felt there were magic for a moment. Or at least, she thought there might be. She was pretty sure. But maybe, it was just random. Pretty random, even for her.

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"It's a sad and beautiful world
It's a sad and beautiful world

Sometimes I just won't go
Sometimes I can't say no

It's a sad and beautiful world
It's a sad and beautiful world

Sometimes days go speeding past
Sometimes this one seems like the last"---Sparklehorse, Sad and Beautiful World.